Hidden behind the high

I imagine it is easier for my mother to stay in her own world. In her world she is free of reality; her “cock sucking, motherfucking junkie” is safely hid behind a high. In her world, she is out of harm's way of her mother’s nasty words, her children’s pain, and her own disappointments. There, instead of facing it all, she lies down like a doormat and welcomes defeat.